Not enough time
Not everything that happens to me is directly about my art process...but this definitely relates to art.
Longer story a little shorter, I was talking with some friends about creating the kind of life I want to live. Josh and I have been really interested in community building and both of us had amazing experiences while living in intentional communities. So since then I have been really focused on how to recreate that. Some ideas have involved moving back to Findhorn (the community I lived in), joining a cohousing group (which we have since stepped away from), asking close friends to go in on buying a duplex (this idea is still hot for us), starting a women's group, etc.
But in talking about these ideas, I started to feel frustrated because I wanted to feel the community feeling NOW...I didn't want to wait for it to grow and evolve...and it comes out a few minutes later that I feel like I don't have enough time.
This has been a common thought in my life, mostly because my dad's early death at 41 has impacted me that way. I have felt that I don't have enough time to do the things I want to do (although at 28, I must say in my own defense, that my life has felt quite full!). And I don't want to be "late to the party." Well, I was reminded that in the scheme of things, metaphorically I want to run a marathon but I haven't even bought running shoes yet. So I just need to see that what I am doing IS on the path and I AM working on (and succeeding) creating my life the way I want.
Also, I can't keep looking externally for satisfaction. That's a long term habit I've had and I'd like to obviously bring that into my process in art. No matter how many times I've SEEN a marathon, or studied them, or trained, I still have to run the thing myself.
I have a few things going on now, so I feel better about my financial sustainability. Woo hoo! But of course, always keep me in mind for anything you think I might be interested in!
Vacation ends today/tomorrow, so then I am back in the saddle and I really approach this journey with vigor! Thanks again for reading, I hope all of you are enjoying your new year.
Longer story a little shorter, I was talking with some friends about creating the kind of life I want to live. Josh and I have been really interested in community building and both of us had amazing experiences while living in intentional communities. So since then I have been really focused on how to recreate that. Some ideas have involved moving back to Findhorn (the community I lived in), joining a cohousing group (which we have since stepped away from), asking close friends to go in on buying a duplex (this idea is still hot for us), starting a women's group, etc.
But in talking about these ideas, I started to feel frustrated because I wanted to feel the community feeling NOW...I didn't want to wait for it to grow and evolve...and it comes out a few minutes later that I feel like I don't have enough time.
This has been a common thought in my life, mostly because my dad's early death at 41 has impacted me that way. I have felt that I don't have enough time to do the things I want to do (although at 28, I must say in my own defense, that my life has felt quite full!). And I don't want to be "late to the party." Well, I was reminded that in the scheme of things, metaphorically I want to run a marathon but I haven't even bought running shoes yet. So I just need to see that what I am doing IS on the path and I AM working on (and succeeding) creating my life the way I want.
Also, I can't keep looking externally for satisfaction. That's a long term habit I've had and I'd like to obviously bring that into my process in art. No matter how many times I've SEEN a marathon, or studied them, or trained, I still have to run the thing myself.
I have a few things going on now, so I feel better about my financial sustainability. Woo hoo! But of course, always keep me in mind for anything you think I might be interested in!
Vacation ends today/tomorrow, so then I am back in the saddle and I really approach this journey with vigor! Thanks again for reading, I hope all of you are enjoying your new year.
posted by Becca Campbell @ 10:33 AM
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